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Post by xavier alexander crowe on May 11, 2011 19:48:52 GMT -5
  REPORTS OF LOVERS' TRYST[/font][/size] W E R E N E I T H E R C L E A R N O R D E S C R I P T- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/font][/size][/sup] The seventeen year old couldn't help himself as he paced around his bedroom restlessly, thoughts twisting themselves into confusing knots around his head. He'd thought this was over with when he'd left New Jersey, leaving it all behind and buried deep in his mind, but now everything had been thrust right back into the spotlight when he'd spotted her walking around the streets as though she owned them. He'd immediately been assaulted by the sparse memories he had of the event in question, the guilt he'd thought he'd managed to bury deep down, made even worse by the internal debate that wouldn't leave him alone.
'You can't hide it forever' He snapped at himself as he turned to pace the length of his bedroom once more, for once able to move without tripping because he'd cleaned the floor a day or so ago. "He'll hate me though..." He answered himself, fear evident in the words as he trembled at the thought, his eyes turning helplessly to the two dogs taking up most of the room on his bed. "What if he hates me? I don't - I don't think I could take it if he hates me. I love him." The female of the pair raised her head at his worried words, and he just let himself flop onto the bed next to them, hugging the massive dog close. "How could I even begin to tell him something like that?"
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Post by jack harvester acres on Jul 1, 2011 10:23:43 GMT -5
 YOU TRIED SO HARD TO BE SOMEONE THAT[/font] you forgot who you are youFILL SOME EMPTINESS 'TIL ALL YOU HAD SPILLED[/size][/color] over now everything you have is soFAR AWAY THAT YOU DON'T KNOW WHERE YOU ARE[/color][/font][/center] Surprisingly, the eighteen year old had been up for a while. Usually, he slept the whole day when he had nothing to do but he'd found himself rolling around restlessly in bed, staring up at the ceiling of his apartment with paranoid thoughts running through his head. He just had a feeling that something was wrong with Xav, that he was upset about something, and he hadn't seen the adorable glitter-covered boy in a few days. He always got a little paranoid and worried when he went longer than a day without seeing his boyfriend, but this was different. The shifter felt uneasy, almost a little light headed, and there was something inside of him that was urging him to go quickly to the younger male's house to make sure that everything was alright. Even if I am just being paranoid, it's about time I went to go visit him, anyway. I miss him. Deciding against texting his boyfriend and just surprising him with a visit, the shifter quickly dressed and headed out the door, yawning as he quietly made his way to Charter Road. It wasn't too far away, thankfully, and it wasn't long before he'd spotted Xav's house.
There were the usual butterflies in his stomach and smile flickering over his lips as he approached the door, but there was also something else, something that made his smile quickly fade and turn into a frown. There was something wrong and he just knew it. Cautiously, he crept up to the door, not bothering to knock as he quietly opened it and looked around, stepping in silently and closing the door behind him. It was quiet, something that was unusual, because Xavier was never quiet. He was possibly one of the loudest people Jack knew, so the near silence made him even more nervous. Biting his lip, feeling more on edge than was normal, Jack crept through the house until he'd gotten to Xav's room, peeking in without a word. The first thing he noticed was how clean it was and than he noticed how his boyfriend, usually bursting with energy and hyperness, was flopped on his bed with the dogs. His heart skipped a beat, worry instantly making his jaw clench as he walked in, making enough noise for Xav to know he was there. "Xav?" he whispered, reaching out to gently to touch the younger boy's shoulder. "You okay, babe?"
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Post by xavier alexander crowe on Jul 21, 2011 12:30:08 GMT -5
REPORTS OF LOVERS' TRYST [/font][/size] W E R E N E I T H E R C L E A R N O R D E S C R I P T- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/font][/size][/sup] His head tilted up as his boyfriend walked in, paling enough that his worried blue eyes seemed even larger in his face. He'd kept himself locked up in his house since he'd seen her, unwilling to wander outside, and he knew he had to have worried his boyfriend but he hadn't been able to face going outside. His mom had tried to find out what was wrong but he'd shrugged her off, keeping the churning guilt to himself, unable to risk her disappointment. He was a whore, that was what he was - he hadn't said no, not that he could remember, and he'd cheated on Jack. It didn't matter that he'd been drunk and drugged, he still should have said no. He'd still cheated on the boyfriend he loved and was so afraid of losing, but he had to tell him. The guilt was killing him slowly just as it had before, but this time it was worse because he'd kept it hidden.
"I'm sorry, i'm sorry..." He sobbed softly as Jack touched his shoulder, leaning into the touch as he shivered. His eyes focused on his boyfriend, bright with unshed tears as his hair fell into his eyes, and he imagined that his guilt showed in every feature. He reached up and wrapped his arms around Jack's waist, standing and burying his face against his boyfriend's shoulder because he didn't want to lose Jack without one last hug. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to! I'm so sorry, please don't hate me Jack, please." The words were almost pleading as he looked up at his boyfriend, tears slowly falling down his cheeks and he didn't even care if his eyeliner smudged or ran. "I'm sorry, i'm so sorry. Please don't hate me. I swear I didn't mean for it to happen" He deserved to be hated for what he had done, but he still couldn't stand the thought ot it.
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Post by jack harvester acres on Sept 26, 2011 18:06:13 GMT -5
YOU TRIED SO HARD TO BE SOMEONE THAT [/font] you forgot who you are youFILL SOME EMPTINESS 'TIL ALL YOU HAD SPILLED[/size][/color] over now everything you have is soFAR AWAY THAT YOU DON'T KNOW WHERE YOU ARE[/color][/font][/center] the look in his boyfriend's eyes made his heart stop, breath catching in his throat as someone inside of him seemed to break. who had hurt xavier? who had made him have such a devastated look in his eyes? what is he not telling me? have i done something to hurt him? quickly rummaging through his thoughts, the shifter tried to find something that he could have possibly done to hurt the younger boy but came up with nothing. he had always treated xavier with more respect and love than he had ever given any of his other partners, and he hadn't even touched a drink since the summer. jack had never given up drinking before, not for anyone, but for xav he had tried extremely hard to be good. he sent text messages every day and called at least once a day as well and always tried to come over whenever he could. so it couldn't have been anything he did! or at least, he seriously hoped not. "babe, smile.." he whispered, not even sure if the hybrid had heard him because the younger boy was suddenly sobbing out words.
"i'm sorry, i'm sorry..." jack bit his lip, blinking away his own tears and wrapping tattoo covered arms around xav protectively as the smaller boy stood, kissing the side of his face gently to try and sooth him. "please don't cry, xav, i hate seeing you upset." the older boy frowned, fingers of one hand reaching and gently brushing through his boyfriend's hair. "i'm sorry, i didn't mean to! i'm so sorry, please don't hate me jack, please." his lips stayed pressed against the side of his boyfriend's face, eyes closing as the arm wrapped around his lover tightened, pinning their bodies together as he shivered. he had a feeling he knew what xav was apologizing for but something told him there was more to the story, and that his boyfriend wasn't at fault. xav was too innocent and nice and loved him too much to ever do something like that and jack trusted the younger boy more than he trusted anyone else.
"baby, i don't hate you. i love you too much to ever hate you for anything, okay? please just tell me what's wrong," he cooed gently, his voice soothing as he gently nuzzled xav's neck, exhaling shakily as he mentally prepared himself for the story. he looked down, brown eyes meeting watery blue and jack frowned, using his thumb to gently wipe away the tears. "i'm sorry, i'm so sorry. please don't hate me. i swear i didn't mean for it to happen." his eyes closed again, his breath stuttering a little, the words hitting him like a ton of bricks. and yet, he felt no anger toward xav because he just knew it hadn't been his boyfriend's fault. xavier wasn't the cheating type and they had been together so long... jack was convinced his boyfriend was innocent. "xav, please... relax, i don't hate you, i just want to know what happened, okay?"
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Post by xavier alexander crowe on Nov 24, 2011 3:29:25 GMT -5
REPORTS OF LOVERS' TRYST [/font][/size] W E R E N E I T H E R C L E A R N O R D E S C R I P T- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/font][/size][/sup] He didn't deserve Jack. He knew of everything the older boy had done for him, from how carefully he took care of him to how Jack had even given up drinking for him; and he'd gone and betrayed him, given up everything in one night he couldn't even remember because he'd drunken too much. Those two simple words made him flinch, his stomach twisting and coiling as he shook his head, sobbing more. How could he smile when he'd messed everything up? Jack loved him, and he was just a stupid whore. Just like his mom.
He whimpered at the thought, feeling lips pressing against his face and arms tightening around him. Even when he had fucked up so badly, jack was still trying to comfort him, and he trembled at the thought. He couldn't help but attack himself mentally, so sure he had cheated, because not even alcohol could make him cheat if he hadn't wanted to, right? And he hadn't said no, not that he could remember, although he couldn't remember very much after he'd had that beer the photographer had given him. It had all blacked out after that, until he'd woken up sandwiched between them naked, and there'd been too much evidence to deny what had happened.
He shuddered as Jack wiped the tears away, pressing his face to his boyfriend's shoulder as he whimpered. "I-it was last year... w-when we were in New Jersey." He whispered shakily, clinging to the older boy. "I went for a w-walk and ended up at the park, and there was this photo shoot going on... t-they asked me to help, b-because their model didn't show up." They knew Mia, apparently, and since he'd tagged along with her on a couple of shoots they must have recognized him or something. "Afterwards, the p-photographer... I can't remember his name, it started w-with an L... he invited me back to his house to look at the pictures, along with his a-assistant... I d-don't remember her n-name, either. And I a-accepted."
He whimpered at the last word, closing his eyes so he couldn't see Jack's face as he continued the story shakily. "H-he offered me a drink, and I.. I g-guess it was really strong, b-because..." He choked there, his stomach clamping down as the guilt threatened to overwhelm him and make him sick. He had to tell Jack though... Jack deserved to know, because he was amazing. It was himself who was the shitty boyfriend. "Because the n-next thing I remember is... is waking up between them, n-naked." He did gag then, remembering the realization that he'd not only cheated on his boyfriend, but had apparently had sex with a girl, something he couldn't even imagine without shuddering.
He pulled away then, hugging himself as he ducked his head down, trying to hold back the tears. "I w-wouldn't b-blame you if you left me," He whispered, the salty drops making their way over his cheeks unbidden. "I'm just l-like my mother." His birth mother - the prostitute who had abandoned him at the hospital. A whore, something he'd tried to keep hidden from Jack, but he guessed it was like mother, like son.
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